It is important to remember...

We Share an Addiction

(Previously posted.)

"There is something about yourself that you don't know. Something that you will deny even exists, until it's too late to do anything about it. It's the only reason you get up in the morning. The only reason you suffer the blood, the sweat and the tears. This is because you want people to know how good, attractive, generous, funny, wild and clever you really are. Fear or revere me, but please, think I'm special.  We share an addiction.  We're approval junkies."  - Revolver

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The March 26, 2009 issue of the New York Daily Record (a local legal news type publication) carried the following quote from Elbert Hubbard:

“To avoid criticism do nothing, say nothing, be nothing.”

Upon the first reading, I found myself agreeing with the precept of it and almost even ready to dive right in and embrace it when interacting outside of “El’s World”…and yet the more I considered it, the more I found myself strongly disagreeing with Mr. Hubbard.

The truth is, one just cannot avoid criticism in life, and even if one could avoid it, it really isn’t in a person’s best interest to do so. Criticism serves a very important function in life, and avoidance of it would be to miss out on the growth opportunities it represents.

A common initial response to criticism is hurt feelings and a desire to defend one’s actions. After all, “if only they understood my intent, they would not be criticizing me.”  The thing is… even when our intentions are good ones, or are good ones in our own mind, sometimes the method of the approach is seriously lacking…and sometimes we are just flat out wrong. How our actions are perceived matter far more than what our intent was in the first place. After all, it is other people’s perceptions that will determine whether or not our message has been received. If the message is never received, the intentions and motives become completely irrelevant.

My point here is that I do not believe criticism should be viewed as something negative in our lives to be avoided at all costs. Instead, it can be a catalyst that makes us take a look at ourselves and result in understandings that help us to become a better person.

As for me… well, I’ve mostly always welcomed constructive criticism… except from people I love.  For some reason, I have a very difficult time in hearing criticism from someone close to me. Is that due to pride? Is it vanity? I don’t know for sure, but I suspect it has a great deal to do with needing the approval of the few folks in life whom I allow to become close to me. Those whose approval I seek are few and far between, but where those particular people are concerned, I am indeed an “approval junkie”. I am coming to learn, however, that criticism from someone I love actually has the most potential for effectuating a positive change in my life.

 

Empathic Listening Ability

 (Previously posted.)

There are certain people who have an ability to consistently stop me in my tracks and make me look upon them with a sense of awe and admiration. You see, I really admire ethical people who have a strong sense of fair play. It isn't always easy to determine the ethical choice in a given situation, and many times such things seem to be subjective. The study of ethics tells us that while it is not always easy to determine what is “right,” ethical behavior is not by any stretch of the imagination “just in the eye of the beholder.”

A second trait that really blows me away is when someone exhibits empathic listening ability. Empathic listening is the ability to understand another person from that person’s own internal frame of reference rather than from your own frame of reference. This level of listening can be so hard to reach, because most people naturally tend to tell, advise, agree, or disagree based on their own view, rather than really understanding what another person is saying and feeling.

It is a simple fact of life is that most folks are like sheep in that when left to their own devices, they will generally follow each other. (Someone else said that first, but I’m not sure who…)  So, girls and boys the moral of the story is, if you want to be an effective leader, learn how to utilize empathic listening to achieve a positive outcome, and don’t ever forget the importance of the ethical obligations that is (should be) inherent in learning to influence other people’s actions. If you are among those who wish to be led, then please do think about considering these qualities when deciding the type of person you will allow yourself to be led by.

"Some men you just can't reach..."

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Last night I was trying to catch up on some of my studying that I have been neglecting lately. My advanced management course (don’t ask how I ended up in that one...it is a long story) deals primarily with various forms of communication, effectiveness of communication, barriers to effective communication, and the like. This course isn’t rocket science, but it has highlighted some useful information on what can happen to a message between when it is sent and when it is received by its intended audience. I thought I’d share some of that information here. (I know, I know… how exciting, right? Just read it…okay? It won’t hurt you to think for five minutes. )

In life, there are people who just ‘get’ you. They are on the same mental path and speak the same language you do. When you start to explain something…they understand right where you are going with the explanation and how you made certain connections to come up with a particular conclusion. Communication flows easily both ways... unhampered by failures in understanding. You know what I mean, don’t you?

Of course, on the other hand, there are also those who don’t, can’t, and never will ‘get’ you. I think when this situation arises, there is often times a tendency to blame the other person for the breakdown in communication. I’m not saying that in some cases blame isn’t warranted... but it seems to me that one should at least consider the possibility that the communication problem lies in large part with the way each person conceptualizes ideas, and how each person is built personality wise.

To me, being able to communicate well is critical within a relationship. Because of my own personality traits and the way I come to understand things, there has hardly ever been a time where I could just accept things at face value, or gracefully accede to something that I do not understand. I have to understand things on a gut level or there is no peace... not for me and not for anyone else around me.

For the most part, the people that I have been closely involved with in my life with have understood this about me, and in the things that mattered, have permitted me to ask questions when things were unclear to me, to reach a point of understanding. Once I reach a point of understanding something on a gut level, I "know" it. It becomes a part of me. I can answer all kinds of questions about it, and know what to do with it in any circumstance to which it relates. I will never have to "learn" it again. It is the difference between having abstract book knowledge of how to build a house, and the ability to actually go build a house. I have a NEED to understand and wrap my mind around things.

Keeping in mind the above, any way you look at it, I'm just not going to be an easy or peaceful person to be around for anyone who is not on the same wavelength, because just as they do not get me, I do not get them, either. There are lots of things you can change with regard to a person’s actions, but it’s probably not a good idea to start tampering with a person’s personality. Therefore, there comes a time when you have to accept that “some men you just can’t reach.” Sometimes, you just have to accept that communication is not going to take place…forgive yourself and the other person... and move on.

Of course, sometimes people really are too busy coming up with something to refute the other person rather than listening in an attempt to understand the other side. This is not the type of situation I am writing about. Rather, I am referring to a genuine difference in the way two people interpret things…a situation in which neither side is attempting to frustrate or annoy the other or simply want to be “right”.



Quote and title to this post taken from Guns N’ Roses. “Civil War"

Damn...that was fun!

(Previously posted.)

 

The time has come, as inevitably it does, to discover which of you who claim to be my friends actually mean it. In that vein...today, my BFF

and I are going to have lunch and hang out.

Sooooo....

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If any of you get a collect call from any correctional facility in New York State...we just need bail money. We promise to pay you back!

"A good friend will come and bail you out of jail...but, a true friend will be sitting next to you saying, 'Damn...that was fun!'" -Unknown

I don't think I'd ever seen a dragonfly before...

(Previously posted.)

 

Gorgeous! It landed right beside my pond and stayed around long enough for me to get some pics. What incredible colors! Apparently, this little guy is just a tike.

Profoundly lazy, helpless and/or just plain stupid...

(Previously posted.)

If you approach me with a problem, it is in my nature to try to find a solution. I am a solution-oriented person. I don’t view problems as being negative… I see them as puzzles to be solved by finding a resolution that most closely achieves a desired outcome.

Now…I may have mentioned a time or two that I’m not people-oriented. I would interact with others more, but I don’t want to. Unfortunately, this has resulted in some unforeseen consequences in that my co-workers and family seem to have found a way to use my nature against me as a means of socializing with me. (Either that, or they are profoundly helpless, lazy and/or just plain stupid.)

By way of example, sometime near the end of August, I purchased a Kindle for my mom’s birthday. I had given one to my dad for his birthday, but he wouldn’t let her touch it. In order to even the playing field between them, I thought she deserved her own. In retrospect, maybe I should have just sent flowers.

Mom received the package from Amazon in a timely fashion and I was thanked profusely. Of course, once again I had to listen to the exact same speech I hear every year about how I shouldn’t spend my money on them. On the heels of that lecture, she asked if it would hurt my feelings if she exchanged it for the Nook. I assured her that it would not (the first of many mistakes to come), and that she should get exactly what she wanted. In retrospect, I should have told her that if she didn’t keep that Kindle, it would devastate me past any hope for recovery.

9/7/11 from Mom: Changed my mind. I really like the Kindle. Will keep it.

9/7/11 from El: Well please only keep it if that is what YOU want to do. I would much rather you have what you would really like. It doesn't matter to me if it is the Kindle or Nook or something else.

9/8/11 from Mom: As for the Kindle, I hate to ask but what did you pay for mine? I think the Nook is about the same but not sure. I have 30 days to change it without losing anything on it.

9/8/11 from El: I don't remember what I paid…you can look at Amazon and see. It was the one with 3G.

9/9/11 from Mom: Where is my return label to send my Kindle back to Amazon?

9/9/11 from El: Mommy, I told you... You need to log into your amazon account and click on return a gift.

9/9/11 from Mom: Oh, honey! I am so sorry. I did not read that part of your email! I will take care of it.

9/10/11 from Mom: My printer at home is not working and neither is the one at the office! Now what can I do? It should be fixed in day or two.

9/10/11 from El: I will mail you the return label today.

9/15/11 from Mom: I’m sending out the box to return the Kindle to Amazon in the morning. I would like to get this Nook: Best e-ink reader –CNET, 06/01/2011 * Incredibly easy–just touch and read * Ultra-light, thin and the longest battery life * Most advanced E Ink® 6" display w/ crisp fonts * Expert recommendations and fun social features

9/15/11 from El: Okay… I’ll go ahead and order it.

9/16/11 from Mom: Well don’t order it just yet. I think I may want the color Nook after all.

9/16/11 from El: I already ordered it! Okay, you will just need to return it when it arrives.

9/17/11 from Mom: Did you say that I could exchange the Nook for the colored one after I receive it and send it back? When do you think it will come? How should I send it back when i do receive it?

9/18/11 from El: It should be there by Wednesday. You can either call (number omitted) for return authorization or take it to a B and N store. There is one located at (address omitted).

9/19/11 from Mom: But will they ask for your order number or anything?

9/19/11 from El: Just take the box. Everything you need will be in there. Tell them you want to exchange it.

9/20/11 from Mom: Well, it is just so far to drive to the store to exchange it. Can’t I just send it back to Amazon?

9/20/11 from El: Mommy, you are not listening! I bought it from B and N. You can’t return it to Amazon because I did not buy it from Amazon. Please… just send everything to me. When my credit card is credited from Amazon and from B and N, I will order you the color Nook.

9/20/11 from Mom: Okay. I will pay you the difference.

9/21/11 from Mom: I received the Nook today. Your daddy took it over to the store and exchanged it for the color Nook. I just love it.

:::THUD:::

It was the above interaction that made me realize that I had been had. My mother is one of the most intelligent people I know. There is NO WAY she needed my help with any of this. She just wanted my attention because I go months without calling and only email in response to her emails. Next year… she is getting a check.